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All The Things I Wish I Had The Guts To Say To You

1. Nobody in the town likes you besides your friends and your family. It’s quite funny. I love going to Wal-Mart and hearing about how much everybody hates you, it makes my day so much better. 
2. Everybody knows you screwed me over and they all know you’re the bad guy, not me, you are! I’m not the type of girl you made me out to be and they all know it but apparently you have a reputation I didn’t know about. 
3. I’m not you’re fucking booty call bro! I know you know plenty of hoes, call one of them not me. Yes I’ll act like I’m going to do stuff with you, but I never will I can play your little game and mess with your mind just like you did me. 
4. The only reason I respond to your text in the first place is because for some damn reason I’m still in love with your shitty ass and I’m praying that guy who used to say that he wanted to marry me and couldn’t live without me is burried somewhere inside of you under that asshole suit you’ve put on.
5. If anybody has a right to be mad at anybody for anything, it’s me you asshole. You broke my heart. Think you can use me for sex. I’m not even going to go into all the shit you said and the names you called me when we broke up and never once have you apologized for anything you said. 
6. You told my best friend that you couldn’t stand the fact that I’ve been with a black person, and it disguists you every time you think about it. For one, you knew that the first week of our relationship and it didn’t matter then, why does it matter now? And for two, if I’m that disguisting then why in the hell are you texting me now for sex?
7. I honestly don’t think that you could just have sex with me after we were in love. Something is going to slip out for one of us and I’m praying it’s you. 
8. Nobody gives two shits about how fucking “swole” you are or how long you go to the gym or how much you lift. You’re insecurities about your body are written all over your twitter and facebook page. 
9. Whenever you text me and tell me one thing then text me again changing it, I know you’re lying. You’re not hanging out with any girl, for one nobody in this town likes you and for two if you really were you would boast about it not hide it. If I was hanging out with a guy, hell yeah you would know about it, I’ll tell you every damn detail to let you know how much better my life is without you!
10. Oh btw! Matt is a good kisser =p 
11. You gave me shit about being friends with Nick, but he was there for me when you broke my heart and you just disappeared. He cleaned up your mess. He’s the one who laid in bed and held me for hours just talking till the sun came up, not you. He was there, you weren’t. Who’s the better guy?
12. Hali met Keenan yesterday, she thinks he’s a great guy and doesn’t know why you hate him. Oh right! Because you’re racist! 
13. Everybody thinks you’re a shitty person for coming back to me for sex. Glad to know I’m not good enough for a relationship but I’m good enough to sleep with. 

Breaking up…it’s hard to do…

It’s been two weeks and five days since my ex boyfriend dumped me. He ignored me for two weeks and four of those days… then yesterday out of the blue he texted me out of no where to check up on. I was doing great to be completely honest, I had gone out and seen all my guy friends I gave up when we dated, started to talking to somebody else and even kissed him the night before! Then he would fucking text me!!! Why? Not because he missed me apparently, but because he just wanted to see how I was doing. I was doing great until you texted me and now I’m back at square one, why couldn’t you just kept ignoring me, it made things a lot easier for me! So you don’t miss me but yet you continue to text me and just randomly texted me after two weeks, I don’t think so..I obviously had to be on your mind for you to text me dumbass. I can’t believe that you talked to me like you hadn’t broken my heart or anything, it was nothing had changed. I really don’t understand it all. Boys are confusing as hell. And yes since you want to hang out, we can but I’m putting up my guard majorly and nothing is happening between us I just want to do to look fucking hot infront of you and watch you squirm knowing I’m not yours anymore, I’m going to make you regret leaving me baby. ;) 

I’m Sorry But I Have To Say This…

I find deaths a whole lot easier to deal with than breakups. When people die, you know they’re never coming back and you just don’t have to sit around all day wondering about stuff that you have no control. They’re just gone, end of story. With a breakup, the world of “what if’s” opens up to you and you can’t control it. Either way you end up missing them and you have to move on but I find it harder to move on knowing that person is out there still and you apparently weren’t good enough for them. 

Things that Pissed Me Off Today

1. My french teacher. I hate her and that class with a passion.
2. Being accused of cheating when I didn’t. You tell your students to get a dictionary to help us with our homework and then when I used it I get accused of cheating. Like WTF?!? What was the whole point of me getting a dictionary then? What next, is me using spellcheck on my papers going to be cheating too?
3. Work. It really pisses me off that some people do jack shit and get paid for it, not only that but they get really good reviews. It also pisses me off that one girl flirts with our manager all fucking night long and doesn’t do jack shit while she does, but I however work my ass and get asked to do more shit while she just stands there. Like you seriously didn’t know that two people disappeared for like fifteen minutes and me and my other coworker were doing not only our work but theirs too? The number of high schoolers I work with is ridiculous, and they wonder why there is so much damn drama in that place. 

I love how all my “friends” from high school don’t associate themselves with me anymore when half of them wouldn’t be friends to begin with if it wasn’t for me. Two faced much?